My Greatest Challenge Yet.

My greatest challenge yet. 

Pregnancy was something I’ve dreamt about since I was a little girl. 

Pregnancy was something I worried I would never get to experience. 

And here I am. I am in it. 

It came with overwhelming joy and then insurmountable fear. 

Within the first few hours, it showed me I could have everything I’d ever wanted. 

Within the first few days, it showed me just how fragile life can be. 

Pregnancy brought me to my knees, it highlighted what matters most in this life- it called for resiliency. 

Pregnancy had me counting each day, clinging to hope, and praying I get to see this through. 

Pregnancy declared, life from here on out, will never be the same. 

Pregnancy asked me to slow down. It asked me to rewrite it all. 

It was a dream of growing and glowing and building. 

And yet I felt like I was giving up everything I had ever known. 

Succumbing to the changes. 

Pregnancy stated loud and clear- My body was no longer my own. 

Pregnancy required me to introduce myself again and again to my own home.

Pregnancy said I have to learn new ways of doing just about everything. 

I watch on as every curve evolves- sometimes with love, sometimes with anxiety, sometimes with disbelief. 

Pregnancy teaches us how to let in grace. 

Pregnancy, if you let it, is an unrelenting lesson of unconditional love. 

With every new symptom, you wonder how much more can change. 

And you're reminded just how grand the miracle that is happening inside of you really is. 

Pregnancy commands a certain type of stamina.  

Pregnancy desires all of your care and your attention. 

Pregnancy is so much more than I ever dreamt it to be. 

It’s every feeling of gratitude. Every sense of wonder. It’s the most unknown. The most terrifying. The most relentless, and the most freeing. 

It brings to the surface everything that needs to change. 

Pregnancy highlights that the life I choose to live affects so much more than me. 

The hopes and dreams I have for my child, I must first find within myself. 

The safety, the stability, the worthiness, the love, the gumption, the peace. 

Pregnancy is the start of a new relationship with myself and with this life. 

I’ve never felt more aligned and discombobulated.  

Pregnancy is just the beginning.

Pregnancy is all I’ve ever wanted and my greatest challenge yet.